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Life Advice
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Manipulators will always cast away people who no longer support them or have figured out their red flags.
Remember, those people will live a life with that guilt along with whatever other issues they have while you can live your life free and forget about them.
You will always matter more than any kind of lie.
Remember, those people will live a life with that guilt along with whatever other issues they have while you can live your life free and forget about them.
You will always matter more than any kind of lie.
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Shwarz Q and A, for your amusement
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I've put together this thing from questions I've been asked by friends and whatnot, so there may be some PG-13 rated junk here, but either way, enjoy, it's all just random.
Q1
What kind of weather do you like?
A. Anything without too much humidity because that gives me splitting headaches. I think the winter with snow is pretty, but can be dangerous for travel, I like warm summer type weather of course too.
Q2
Have you fulfilled any long term goals you've wanted to achieve?
A. In the face of a lot of crap, I've finally gotten my college junk done I wanted to do, there's a lot of other things I can't go into detail about that I've been pushed back on, but I still have time to try to catch up again.
Q3
What projects do you want to work on?
A. Back in 2014, my friend wanted me to illustrate some things for him, and I want to get back into that. I've got some of my own things too, and with some new skills I have, I think I could revisit what I had planned.
Q4
What do you value the most about being creative?
A. I think it's special to have a way to communicate ideas, but by no means can I alone express everything I have in my imagination without knowing how to properly deliver the idea in my head. I think everyone has the ability to communicate in a special way, and it's definitely something that changes over time from experience and learning.
Q5
What do you value in friendship?
A. I've been stabbed in the back so much in my life, probably, anything relating to trust is a big trait I need in friendship, and forgiveness needs to go both ways.
Q6
Have you had sex?
A. No. A lot of friends and people I know don't believe me and make fun of me for it since I'm 22 as of this writing and most of them have already had their run. Sex pisses me off in many aspects of it, but I won't lie that I don't have a drive, but it doesn't matter. People should let me be a virgin if I want and they should do whatever they please as long as it's in their interest, etc.
(P.S. , I've had plenty of people try to hook up with me, ask me what I think of their boobs or other body parts and I may play around with jokes, but I think a lot of these people were experimenting with me or testing me and I let things like that bounce off my mental armor. Haha)
Q7
What is your sexuality?
A. I'm not straight, I'm not gay, I'm just chronically pissed.
Actually, I've been fine with all sorts of backgrounds and I don't care, and my colorful spectrum of friends shows this, plus I've been beaten in by people of all backgrounds too, so I'm just me.
Q8
What are you the most happy about?
A. Getting second chances or having the ability to grow in all aspects of my understanding. I piss off people that can't understand why my mind works the way it does, artfully and not personally, etc.
Q9
What things have surprised you that you never saw coming?
A. I got wrecked by a lot of people I was on good terms with for a long time. I've been considered to be a godparent even though personally I don't think I'm right for raising kids or having them, etc. I got slammed in jail multiple times for middle school aged drama blown out of proportion, etc.
Q10
What do you think you could do to better yourself?
A. Stop giving in to being attracted to people, because love is a dangerous game.
This wraps up this Q and A, thanks for reading this anyone who found interest.
Q1
What kind of weather do you like?
A. Anything without too much humidity because that gives me splitting headaches. I think the winter with snow is pretty, but can be dangerous for travel, I like warm summer type weather of course too.
Q2
Have you fulfilled any long term goals you've wanted to achieve?
A. In the face of a lot of crap, I've finally gotten my college junk done I wanted to do, there's a lot of other things I can't go into detail about that I've been pushed back on, but I still have time to try to catch up again.
Q3
What projects do you want to work on?
A. Back in 2014, my friend wanted me to illustrate some things for him, and I want to get back into that. I've got some of my own things too, and with some new skills I have, I think I could revisit what I had planned.
Q4
What do you value the most about being creative?
A. I think it's special to have a way to communicate ideas, but by no means can I alone express everything I have in my imagination without knowing how to properly deliver the idea in my head. I think everyone has the ability to communicate in a special way, and it's definitely something that changes over time from experience and learning.
Q5
What do you value in friendship?
A. I've been stabbed in the back so much in my life, probably, anything relating to trust is a big trait I need in friendship, and forgiveness needs to go both ways.
Q6
Have you had sex?
A. No. A lot of friends and people I know don't believe me and make fun of me for it since I'm 22 as of this writing and most of them have already had their run. Sex pisses me off in many aspects of it, but I won't lie that I don't have a drive, but it doesn't matter. People should let me be a virgin if I want and they should do whatever they please as long as it's in their interest, etc.
(P.S. , I've had plenty of people try to hook up with me, ask me what I think of their boobs or other body parts and I may play around with jokes, but I think a lot of these people were experimenting with me or testing me and I let things like that bounce off my mental armor. Haha)
Q7
What is your sexuality?
A. I'm not straight, I'm not gay, I'm just chronically pissed.
Actually, I've been fine with all sorts of backgrounds and I don't care, and my colorful spectrum of friends shows this, plus I've been beaten in by people of all backgrounds too, so I'm just me.
Q8
What are you the most happy about?
A. Getting second chances or having the ability to grow in all aspects of my understanding. I piss off people that can't understand why my mind works the way it does, artfully and not personally, etc.
Q9
What things have surprised you that you never saw coming?
A. I got wrecked by a lot of people I was on good terms with for a long time. I've been considered to be a godparent even though personally I don't think I'm right for raising kids or having them, etc. I got slammed in jail multiple times for middle school aged drama blown out of proportion, etc.
Q10
What do you think you could do to better yourself?
A. Stop giving in to being attracted to people, because love is a dangerous game.
This wraps up this Q and A, thanks for reading this anyone who found interest.
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2017 Personal Philosophy
3 min read
The direct reason why my year last year and the year before were terrible was from me not accepting people that once mutually respected me for a very long time were no longer interested in keeping me in their social circle for various reasons.
I'm not going to pretend that I didn't pour gas on the fire for a lot of the fighting that happened, but back then I still thought there was hope in redeeming good terms with these people that absolutely later devastated me.
Now that I look at the events over this time period, I noticed that a lot of these people met me through other people, from high school or mutual friendships, and a lot of these people pulled me out of a hole of uncertainty I was going through at the time. It meant a lot back then that I had new friends who wanted to see me succeed, and I'd hope we'd still be friends even now and kept growing together and sharing ideas, etc.
I learned about how peoples' personality traits can be hard to pick up, and I learned that even if someone flirts with you, they may just be experimenting to find out more information from you, among other different interactions.
Even after all this ended with me being thrown out of this social circle, I think the balance of nature was restored. There was a time before I knew all these people and I still like remembering myself at that point now, instead of this later time period since it all went up in flames. All of us experimented with ourselves and other people over this time period, and in the end, people changed, or found out who they really were and went back to what they were before this time of experimentation/exploration.
As for me, a lot of events went down that have permanently damaged my life now and my future, but at least if I can pick up the small broken pieces that are still usable, maybe I can make something for myself.
Really, the ultimate thing I witnessed from this was a giant circle that everyone walked, and all of us came back to the beginning in one aspect or another.
Hopefully this year will be the year I carve my own path, and never take damage from old conflicts ever again.
With my luck though, I'm still wise by being patient and just letting time heal all wounds.
I'm not going to pretend that I didn't pour gas on the fire for a lot of the fighting that happened, but back then I still thought there was hope in redeeming good terms with these people that absolutely later devastated me.
Now that I look at the events over this time period, I noticed that a lot of these people met me through other people, from high school or mutual friendships, and a lot of these people pulled me out of a hole of uncertainty I was going through at the time. It meant a lot back then that I had new friends who wanted to see me succeed, and I'd hope we'd still be friends even now and kept growing together and sharing ideas, etc.
I learned about how peoples' personality traits can be hard to pick up, and I learned that even if someone flirts with you, they may just be experimenting to find out more information from you, among other different interactions.
Even after all this ended with me being thrown out of this social circle, I think the balance of nature was restored. There was a time before I knew all these people and I still like remembering myself at that point now, instead of this later time period since it all went up in flames. All of us experimented with ourselves and other people over this time period, and in the end, people changed, or found out who they really were and went back to what they were before this time of experimentation/exploration.
As for me, a lot of events went down that have permanently damaged my life now and my future, but at least if I can pick up the small broken pieces that are still usable, maybe I can make something for myself.
Really, the ultimate thing I witnessed from this was a giant circle that everyone walked, and all of us came back to the beginning in one aspect or another.
Hopefully this year will be the year I carve my own path, and never take damage from old conflicts ever again.
With my luck though, I'm still wise by being patient and just letting time heal all wounds.
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Christmas 2016 roundup
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I mostly had cash this year for Christmas, but I did get a cute Litten plush and on the other end of the spectrum, I got a massive battery charger for my car to keep in the trunk, and it can air up tires too. Christmas was sad without Grandma, but the family I still have is what matters now.
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Pokemon Sun Finale
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I just finished my journey in Alola, and I don't want to spoil the game for anyone, but Pokemon Sun was really awesome, and both of the new games are really well done and definitely worth adding to anyone's 3DS game collection. I'm really sad it's over already, but I think the post game will still be fun, and the story of Sun and Moon is the best one yet.
Train on!
Remember, it's not about how fast you complete it, it's about enjoying it as you please, although I feel bad for no lifeing a bunch of games anymore.
Train on!
Remember, it's not about how fast you complete it, it's about enjoying it as you please, although I feel bad for no lifeing a bunch of games anymore.
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